February - 2010

Hurt

Atlantic Canada

You don`t know in those days how much harm u can cause to some one and to your self for drugs and that happened to me, my ex girlfriend and I we were so in love when I first met her she was using some kind of drugs but with the believes that our love could be stronger than drugs she will quit by i went to Denmark to work for a couple months, and she remains here pregnant with our baby so she was tempted to keep doing some drugs by her friends so she did some MDMA enough to kill our baby and end in the hospital with the worse clinics infection Infections I ever saw, so finally here im hurt and with out here in the other side of the country and she is still sick sometimes trying to kill her self for what she have done, so lets thing 2 times before trying some drugs that later on you won`t be able to get out of causing harm to you and some others.

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Basketball or Speedball

Central Canada

In my final year of high school things began to change, Marijuana smoking was very common and almost everyone did it. My friend was an amazing basketball player and was the leading scorer of our high school and he too smoked marijuana. Marijuana was not his problem though this high became not enough for him and he started getting into various other drugs; Ecstasy and Cocaine and finally Speedballs. He began to stop hanging out with the Jocks and got in with the "druggy" crowd. When his parents found out about his drug abuse they kicked him out of the house forcing him at the age of 17 to live on his own. He had to drop out of school to support himself and ended up wrecking his hole basketball career.

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Everyone Does It?

Atlantic Canada

Im a 15 year old in grade 10. Entering high school was one of the most exciting, scariest, confusing, and overwhelming things I have ever experienced. Theres always so much going on in your head, weither it be schoolwork, drama with friends, dating, or even problems at home. The preassure can definitly get the best of us sometimes. Which is why on weekends and vacations most highschool kids love to let loose and party. Not saying theres anything wrong with partying, its a weekly reoutine for me, although its what happens at these parties that can differ. I was in grade 8 going into grade 9, it was summer and me and all the guys decided it would be a great kickoff to get together and split a 24 of beer. We got smashed, cranked music, invited some girls over and laughed all night. Ofocarse as i entered grade 9 our drinking levels became higher, it took more to get us drunk and have a few drinks on the weekend was a must. Up until drinking wasnt that impressive, out came the pot. Me the my freinds went to a huge halloween bash at a grade 10 girls house, alot of people were smoking pot and since i loved the idea of an inteasne buzz I figured what the hell, everyone convinced me id end up doing it sometime so why not now.

I was high, high on pot, something every father, mother, and teacher had warned us about. I got nervous and swore id never do it again. Well honestly people its not addictive but its tempting, smoking pot eventualy was added to my list of thing "not to tell mom or dad". I can honestly tell you, as an average teenager that once you try it youll want it more and more, and once alot of people start doing it it seems so harmless. But once i tried pot, drugs in general really didnt seemtoo bad, ive drank enough that ive thrown up, ive smoking weed, im not addicted to cigaretted, ive smoked salvia and done magic shrooms, tried extacy (MDMA) on ocasions and have tried coke. Ive been clean of all drugs for 3 months now and im struggleing to quit smoking.

Please if you are debating on weather to smoke pot, try that pill everyone at school seems to be popping, or if ur thinking about just going all out and "not giving a s***" then i warn you not to. reconsider and please please be advised that one thing leads to another. and that im not a 40 year old social worker im a teenager in a small town in ontario just trying to help people who might not be sure what its like to do drugs, and to convicne then NOT TO.

nothing good has come from this, drinking in all honestly is something just abou every teenager does, im not going to lie and say dont do it, especially during the holidays peopel love to party, but be careful and dont become just another pill popper/ pot-head or crack headd. be someone youll be pround to be in 10 -15 years.

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i may be alittle burnt.

Northern Canada

It started 3 years ago, one of my friends pulled out what i thought was a ciggerate until she licked it and said she was baptizing it.. she lit it and it had a wierd smell until she told me it was marijuana, i was with a bunch of people and she asked if i wanted a puff and me thinking i was cool obvioulsy said yes , after that one puff weed took a hold of my life, its like it took over me.. yah was the buzz amazing but at the same time it wasnt so great.

i would be in class, and when i would stare at something everything would go blank and i would feel like im high, its so wierd i cant get that feeling out of my body.. ive been trying to quite for a long time now but i just cant seem to.

Everyone sais that they love weed and nah nah, but look what it does to you, look what it did to me.

yah im a teenager and i feel really low for doing this to myself. i can't think like i use to, everything feels like an illustion.. and sometimes it creeps me right out, its harder then it looks to quite but i dont wanna grow up like this.

this is not what i planned my life to be, im not ganna be a burnout and im ganna stand up for myself.

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How drugs changed my life

Central Canada

In grade 6,7,and 8 the police used to bombard us with drug facts and the side effects of drugs. As a grade we swore that we would never take drugs, within the first week of highschool that vow had been broken. Half of my school, and half of everybody else's school was doing drugs. It was a place for people who would have been out of place in elementary school and decided to be drug addicts. Most of those people now notice their addiction to cigarettes and marijuana and are trying to quit.

Its sad that people you know, you went to school with, people that you have known since kindergarden make these stupid decisions and nearly killed themselves. However my cousin was not one of the lucky ones.

He started doing drugs at the age of 14; and he is now 35 and it is his 4th time in rehab. When you live and talk to people who do drugs their biggest excuse was peer pressure. If your peers don't do drugs, you won't feel the pressure.

Make me a promise to not smoke, snort, or inject yourself to death.

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Strangers Giving You A Candy.....

Central Canada

We were in a mall.......It was me, my little brother and my mom..... This some old man said to me and my little brother "Hey come over here i have some candy for you" then me and my brother asked my mom if we can go over thier and get some..... my mom said "No" then we said ok then.... then the old man got up and my mom was starting to look and then we ran..... But when we were at home we watched the news..... They said "that they caught a man giving candy witch was pills hidden side of the candy....and the other kids were just about to die.... and the old man was in jail for his inter life........

Out there is really scary...you have to make some good choices... but some of you wont....... but just be careful out there you'll never know what you can hide inside of u for a long time???????

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One dare can change your life.

Northern Canada

I was hanging out with my friends one day after school and my crush was there. We were playing truth or dare, and my crush dared me to take harrowin. So he handed me the needle and said hit it right there on your arm. so i did and after i did i felt dopy so i went home and my mom asked what was wrong and i said nothing and she asked what we did at the mall and i told her about the harrowin and she freaked. so every other week i see my crush and take harrowin.. now i am 19 and when i was 16 i now regret what i did....

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Why I don't use.

Other

I was dating this guy and he was a hard core drugy and he was hight everyday. And one day he said he was going to a party and i told him if he touched any drug that night or came home high i would leave him and he promised me he would not go neer drugs ever. And I believed him. So he went half the night and didnt touch anything but it was so hard for him not to that he broke down and took every drug he could find. And he overdoesed and died that night at the party because everyone was so high they all thought he was just sleeping.

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i hope i helped

Other

I went to a party with my boyfriend and he wanted to try pot so I made up a story about loosing my lisence and not being able to drive myself home so he said he would wait untill the new years party to try pot or any other drugs.

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two puff pass

Northern Canada

Once I entered high school, there was instant pressure to start smoking pot, and cigarettes.. and since i have no self control i said sure.. why not try smoking up.. first time i did it, to be honest it was an amazing feeling.. and i thought well why not do it another time.. and it was just a repetitive feeling for me. After a few months I didn't need to get high to have the same feeling.. that's when i knew something was wrong, I started loosing my grades and my close friends just seemed to drift away it was horrible.. once i started to realize that, i instantly stopped.. once i proved to my friends that i was sober for 3 months, we all started hanging out again just like we did before, now i just smoke cigarettes and im trying to quit.

My mom had even noticed a change, and she broke down one day and asked me were her old daughter had gone, cause the girl i am now, wasn't the one she had all the fun memories with.

I am now in grade 11 and I've been clean for 2.5 years and i'll never go back to who i was

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nOT PrOuD

Central Canada

the other day was the first time i tried weed. i dont plan on doing at again but i learned alot on how much it impares your logic. normally im so against drugs but my friends were doing it and i had been with them at other times when they got high which wasnt fun. i was tired of being the only sane one in a room of drugged up people so i tried it. i only took two pulls and thought that would be just enough for a fun time, but i felt horrible after. i got bad cotten mouth (when your mouth gets really dry) and very bad green the next morning (the drug equivlent to a hang over). im not doing it again but im kind of glad i tried it so now i know exactly what happens. but..im not proud.

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Pear Pressure!

Central Canada

Last year, I was walking at school and 3 guys came over and made me take some drugs. I thought if i didn't take it i'd be a reject from school. So I took it and now I regrate it. I failed at school for 1 year because of those guys and my health was getting low. After a while i had people helping me to get out of the drug.
This message is to every boys and girls, it's a message to help you guys not take drugs. Don't think your cool if you take some.
Thank You!

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I regret...

Central Canada

I remember the very first time i was introduced to drugs. I regret that moment. I'm going to avoid the long story that leads to the inevitable truth that it was a mistake. I'm currently fighting day in and day out to win the battle of my against my abusive attitude toward drugs. It started through simple drugs, like cigarettes and alcohol, then it slowly progressed as i traveled through highschool. In the process i lost job opportunities, friends, family and made terrible choices. When i was sitting at home and the commercial of the boy who was offered the joint but then turned it down came up. I was shocked, it was almost identical to my lifestory. It was abit worse because i was exposed to more and at a very young age. I can only sit here and imagine the career opportunities that i might have been faced with if i didn't start drugs. I regret that first moment. I regret everything that i lost. I regret everything. I'm completely miserable..... i wish i was never exposed..

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never again

when i was 11 i started smoking pot with some friends i lived in a small town with nothing els to do but smoke up but it messed up my life i ended up in groop homes and forster homes aand every thing .. after my third foster home i quit and moved back home in grade 8 when i hit grade 9 i started again in grage 10 i started doing more like coke and E now i am in grade 11 and i havnt done anything since grade 10

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I never thaught it would happen to me

Central Canada

I never thaught it would happen to me, you kno being 'that girl' the girl that parents tell thir kids to stay away from. the girl that gets bad grades, the girl that gets pregnant in highschool, heres how it happened.

My dad dident hit me all the time, but wen he did it was hard, and there were bruises everywhere... My life totaly changed when CAS took me and put me into a group-home. I was angry and frustrated. Suddenly there were drugs every where, and thats what i learned to use to ease the pain. when I used I went from feeling depressed and affraid, to on top of the world. I thaught i was having the best time of my life, the parties the people, it all blured past me in a whirl. it quickley went from smoking weed, to harsher chemicals. my plans to graduate highschool were long gone. the higs were amazing and the crashes un barable, i had to use at all costs. the sweet coating was gone and all i was left with was a bitter taste in my mouth, wanting more. i began to sell my body so i could afford the high. It was a cold world, and i was on a fast track to knowhere. it was right smack in the depth of my addiction that i found myself pregnant, but i dident stop. at five months pregnant i miscaried. it scared me, and i had nowhere to turn to, it was the most horrible thing i had ever expierienced, the pain was so bad, the guilt was overwhelming, there was blood everywhere. after it was all over i used myself away until my body could take no more. i was homeless, starving, sick, and alone. and i was only 19 years old, six yesrs after my first time, i can remeember it, when i was thirteen... it was so sweet.

I was later arrested and sent to a rehab centre, the pain was horrible, withdrawl is the worst feeling, i felt like i was in hell. I would yell and scream and cry, but no one waoud listen to my pleas, i just wanted one hit. I would throw up everything, i would sweat and pull out my hair, and bite my nails. it hurt so bad.

I had to re build all of my relationships, at first no one trusted me, it was hard to stay clean, somtimes i wanted it so bad. I went back and finished highschool, it was tough. I dont even know if those kids i started uesing with are still alive, but i dont wish my pain on anyone, and i hope that someone will listen to my story and make the decision to walk away.

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Turned Out Wrong

Western Canada

Verse 1

I was walking home one day
Hear the neighbors talking and they say
Why'd that boy loose his way
He's going down the wrong path night and day
And I heard his girlfriend say

Chorus:

He was smoking cigarettes and toking marijuana,
Drinking beer on the front porch of his condo,
And it all turned out wrong,
So I must be strong,
And befriend the kids who aren't like that
I got to spin the wheel of fortune
And decide what path I take
And pray the right choice I'll make.

Verse 2:

She tried not to fall
Into a kaleidoscope wall
She sees a room full of doom and lunatics,
Skin and bones, and crazy addicts.
Staring death in the face,
As she contemplates

Bridge:

She came home alone one day
And saw their smiling faces in the frame
He said they'd stay forever, always be together
If only drugs hadn't dragged him away
Sadly she buried her true love today

Cause....

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Say No.

Atlantic Canada

I'm in high school and more then half my school is using drugs. Sometimes, I do get tempted to try it, like any curious teenager would but I always tell myself, I don't want anything bad in my body. If my friends try it, that's their choice, but if they try it more then once, I'll interfere. I want to always be drug-free. I have very high goals for myself and I want to succeed. I love my family so much and they love me, and I'd never want to be that child that disappoints their parents because of decisions they made... ever. You may just think that it won't affect you, but it does. The weightless feeling may help with whatever your problems are for a little while, but it effs you over in the end. Education? Good job? Loving relationships? Not if you do drugs. You'll never get anywhere.

Who cares what people think? In the long run, saying no will get you so much farther in life then the ones who don't.

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Dark clouds may hang above me but i know i'll get through it

Central Canada

I am 17 years old,and this is my story....

I started smoking marijouna at the age of 14,my mom knew i smoked weed, it really was never hidden.however,by the time i was 16 i was trying,ecstacy,mushrooms,hash,and crack-cocaine. My main problem was ecstacy,i wanted to do it every weekend,i'd call up my older cousin,who was 32 and lived with his boyfriend of 7 years,and they would pop an E with me.We would walk for hours and hours,having these amazing conversations,and the atmosphere around me was so calm and loving,i felt happy in this unrealistic world i created from these drugs.I then tried mushrooms,which is not a drug i really enjoyed,i did it three times,the first 2 times sucked and the third time was pretty awesome and funny so i stopped after that time,finish on a good note,i thought.I first tried crack at school with one of my friends.We bought it,and went underneath stairs in the ravine.Crack was too expensive for me to keep up,so i made it a once a month kind of thing.I kept wanting a better high,so i started to sell weed,when the opportunity of a trade came up.This guy wanted a dime in exchange for a MDMA.Of course i was up for the deal,so i took it and went on.i knew that this was a powerful drug,so i just kept it in my wallet for a couple days then saturday morning came,and i woke up with full intentions on spending my day high with my cousin and his boyfriend.I got there around 2 and they had normal ecstasy tablets,blue dolphins i think they had,bt i took the MDMA,within 40 minutes,i was crazy high..Everything was spinning,i felt out of control of my own body.I started to panic,my cousins were trying to calm me down ,but i kept saying"im too high" after trying to act like i was fine for the first 20 minutes.I wanted my high to go away,i wanted to be sober again,i hated myself for what i had done to myelf.then the thoughts of explaining this to my mom,when im in the hospital gettin my stomach pumped.i franticly ran to the bathroom,to try and throw up,when i couldnt,i paniced more,asking for food in hopes it would bring my high down...i grabbed that slice of bread like i havent seen food in weeks! then when my cousins left thr washroom,i literally,started pouring the toilet water over me,tryin to cool down.it was disgusting..I ended up on the couch,covered in a blanket with my shirt pulled above my breasts,i felt like my clothes were weighing me down,making me hot,but i was soo cold at the same time,so being half naked with a blanket over me seemed to help..I needed complete silence,i made my cousins boyfriend sit next to me with a cold face cloth on my face juss because i needed the physical touch,and emotional feeling of knowing someone is there for me ,and im gonna be okay,it was like a security blanket.Finally,after 4 hours of complete hell,i juss popped up from the couch and laughed and made a joke.I was fine,in fact,2 hours later i decided to pop another ectasy tablet.Every high after that night,was depressing,i would have panic attacks,feel alone,depressed and over analyze everything,i ven had thoughts of suicide.Finally,when i relaized the drugs were making everything worse,my grade were slipping,relationships were falling apart and i was forgetting the person i used to be,i decided to change my life around.I still smoke weed on a regular basis,but im going to school now,im healthy,happy,gettin great grades,and saving the relationships i ruined..It hasnt been easy,but im determined to succeed and prove that i am a fighter.That even the dirtiest habits and hardest habits have a way out of them,its juss finding the way out,and not giving up,if you make a wrong turn.I hope to help other kids learn tht drugs dont help you,you may think its a better social thing,but when you dont have that drug anymore,your so called "friends"wont be around anymore and you gave up everything,for something so evil.Just remember The power of good always beats the power of evil.

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mush mistake

Western Canada

it was a summer day a few years ago when we did the most horrifying thing ever. we had just made a new friend and he was into metal...and satan! he had long hair and long lies. we never wanted to do drugs but he said hey take these mushrooms there fun, it will be okay, so we did, we took them,. iv regretted that day ever since, it was beyond scary! i saw melting faces! my teeth felt like they were falling out, my friend kept ripping paper and didnt think she was alive. we were also convinced the photo booth was attacking us and a man in a purple sweater was cold, peoples faces were turning into dragons and we were spiraling into a black abyss full of fire death and torture. we had sinned! iv never felt so ashamed what would my parents think.

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Triplel Threat

Central Canada

Ohh kaayyy........ i firsted started out smoke cigirattes like lots of kids in grade nine.. my life started going down hill when my parents broke up and divorced .... and my uncle took me in and physicaly assulted me (not sexually) i started to cut myself when they found out about that they took me to a pshycoligist they eventuallly got me to stop it. when i told her (my phsyc girl) that my uncle aboussed me i moved back in with my dad where he let me drink an smoke with my friends all the time...... he didnt think it was bad so we would smoke together and drink together all the time he said it was "bonding time " ....... one day at school at lunch my friends got me to go get stonned with them just a little weed........ nothin gto bad... then in grade 10 me and my friends and where big time into weed and at a party one night my bf got me to shot up sum heroin and i passed out and my friends told me that he had rapped me..... so right there and then i stopped doing drugs cus who knows what coukd have happend next time .

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Why I Decide To Stay Drug Free

One day I was on MSN and one of my friend's older brother started to talk to me, and he told me he was high. He was acting really strange and that moment I promised myself that I would never do drugs. I know a lot of my friends who do drugs and it makes me really upset. They often get annoyed from me what I nag at them and obovisly don't listen to me, so I decided to give up telling them I don't care, when I really do. I was watching TV when I saw a commercial for this website, so I decided to go on it. I then saw the pictures of the drugs, and I thought to myself, "why would anyone want to do this to their body?". It disgusted me. Then I read all the cons about them, and I felt kind of sick; its just gross. I don't even know why people do them. If its to get relaxed, you can just go the spa! It will probably cost the same amount of money, and the spa is healthier!

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Untitled.

Other

Im young, and of course.. all my friends smoke weed. Well not all, but a lot. One of my bestfriends did acctually. Great girl to be honest, trust worthy, easy to talk to, everything a bestfriend is. I was with her this one night, I was really upset. I guess she had weed on her. She told me that if i smoked it, it would make everything better, cause I would be so stoned out of my mind that i would have no diea what was even going on. So I did it. She was right, I forggot about all of it. I was having fun. Never after that did I smoke weed, because I have somehting to pretect. My life. And just to say, my life isent about sucking through a pipe. I lost the respect of my parents, my friends, and the one person i never wanted to lose, the boy i thought i was in love with. I messed up . I really did. Cause i was also a singer, not anymore. My friends promised me it wouldent mess up any of that.. well it did. Goes to show how much they know eh ? Dont trust your friends, not with imformation about that anyways.

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I used to do DRUGS!

I used to do drugs and I didn't like it.I needed help to stop doing drugs.I'm only 12 years old.I hated doing drugs I thought it would help me but I just kept doing it.The reason why I do drugs is because my mom passed away I did this for a reason too. When I see my friends doing weed it makes me want to weed too they wanted to give me a toke but I said nah i'm trying to stop doing drugs then I walked away.......Yeaah you will regret doing drugs soon

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Night of complications

Other

One night I went to a party it was fun until that minute when I went outside to get a breath from dancing and some kids were smoking weed,and they pressured me into smoking the weed and my mind went off the subject and I thought about how my life would be if I took the weed and smoked it and what kind of example it would make on my little sister. When I got home I told my parents, it seemed so fast and comlicated it was,

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Getting influenced by love

Northern Canada

It all began on December 27th..

We were in my ex boyfriends car parked out of a movie theater. My only reason why I wanted to see him was cause I wanted to get back with him and I had heard that he started doing hard drugs again as soon as we broke up..

So I asked him if he had any on him,he opened his wallet and took out cocaine and speed..He took both right in front of me.And that truely deeply hurt me,so I later decided to try it too (It was my first time)and I was really stressed..It took me 5min before it started kickin in.I started of with dizziness and then with huge stomatch cramps..Then I started feeling really afraide so I started screaming and crying..then I couldn't feel my hands & feet..I started kicking and screaming..My ex was trying to keep me calm telling me all kinds of sweet things.He basically tried everything..But I was in my own world..He even asked me to say something..But my lips were shaking.I wasnt able to speak..An hour later I finaly came to...But all that to say that getting influenced is really easy and can happen to anybody...Its important to know that you are so much better then that..